Archive for December, 2006

and he was called home to be with the lord on christmas day

December 25, 2006

My ah gong passed away tdy. I think it finally hit me when I reached home after the wake, only then I allowed myself to cry. Felt pretty detatched from the whole proceedings at the funeral, I didnt shed any tears there, was just somewhat stoned.

He’s 90, seen alot, led a fulfilling life and contributed to the Hokkien community back in those years. He nearly left us when I was in J1, but he fought on till today. At least he looked at peace lying in the coffin. I was glad for the fact that i had visited him before I left for shanghai, at least he was able to talk to me then. Although his condition had taken a turn for the worse the day before- he wasnt able to move his limbs, but his voice was loud and strong as always.

They distributed the mourning clothes to the entire family. Why do we wear white and black? I wouldnt want white and black, its too depressing. Spent the rest of my time folding paper ingots. There were a few bags full, I think they wanted more, he’s gonna be a rich man, whereever he’s going… Rest in peace, ah gong, you’re finally reuniting with ah mah.



December 9, 2006

The waters return to their beguiling calm, after the storm.
Today’s alright, woke up feeling at peace with myself. The short trip to the YMCA to collect the children’s storybooks left me feeling exausted, I went home and KO-ed on the couch right after. Probably the time of the month approaching again. Darn, it just HAS to hit me when I am going overseas.

Met the clique in town for dinner, its always nice hanging out and catching up with them, relishing that familial comfort. Dinner wasn’t fantastic but the company more than made up for it. jh really says the funniest of things, we always end up laughing ourselves silly. zw sure went through some exciting adventures with the navy, one of the latest being the jungle survival stint. He had to kill and skin a live quail, then barbecue it after. erps. But it sure got me thinking, should there come a day when we are stripped off all our comforts and left with the mere basics of survival, would I bear to do the same? I shudder at the thought, I’d probably starve to death. hc’s found himself a somewhat fulfiling post-army life- working at geox, giving tuition and finding the time to go for carolling practises, and riding lessons. I respect that guy really, always so level-headed and driven, he’ll definitely go far. shaun’s still the same with the lame humour and shopping tendencies. jy looked kinda worn after all that mugging, but she’s still as chirpy as ever. Pity the other girls couldnt come and join us!

We chilled out at rouge’s outdoor cafe after. Loved the music from acid bar, as usual. The vocalist’s damn good. I love her voice ! Everybody go listen on friday nights at acid bar ! Funny thing was, while in the past we were always eager to bring on the alcohol, today, EVERYONE ordered smoothies and mocktails and ale. I think we’ve all mellowed somewhat.

salty rain

December 7, 2006

Not in a gd shape still. my head hurts like hell, and i’m crying again. Funny how he’s never around when I need some comforting, the tv takes precedence over me. I’ve never been this emotional when I was younger. I think I’ve cried like n times more in the past few months than in my pre-uni life combined.

f-ed up. and fed up

December 6, 2006

I’m slowly but surely edged out of the rat race. My friggin’ crappy results are giving me a headache. I’m not meant for this place am I? Is it that difficult really? Because every step I take I seem to be moving backwards, while others seem to be sailing ahead. And seriously, its not because of lack of effort put in.

I think its abt time I focus and start finding the shortest route out.


December 5, 2006

Such is my fickle nature, the restlesness has crept in after blogging at blogspot for 3 years and thus I’ve made wordpress my new home. I suspect it has to do with my (somewhat) nomadic childhood of living in 2 homes at 1 point in time, but that’s another story to tell.

This blog records yet another new chapter of my life, and WordPress does seem more appropriately adult, more journalistic and I really dig the feature that categorize posts! whee =)

The archives of previous previous blog glimmersparklefade was carelessly (callously?) deleted to prevent myself from looking back, leaving some memories lost along the way. Well, sugaredspice at blogspot remains, but version 2 at wordpress here is where i shall continue my online writing journeys. Ride with me, won’t you?